Overwhelmed

I know this is to be my little part of the world of crafting, but sometime iguess you just need to let it out and vent a little bit. This week has just been terrible for me. I have atc's and inchies to work on along with some zen's, but I feel like I've run out of inspiration. I've looked at the wonderful pictures on Flickr and thought of some ideas, but when it came down to making them I'd just go blank.
My anxiety/depression has been taking it's toll on me this week, with work, with my house needing cleaned (mind you it's not a terrible wreck, I just can't seem to care as much as I should or have had in the past) With work...I just feel like I don't belong and it's been a battle for me for quite a while. To just feel accepted is hard for me to accomplish. They are nice people, but they have been together for longer than I have been with the company. And I always feel like I'm intruding or something that would be bad for them. So I have to try to clear my head of all that and try to focus on myself and how I can make myself relax alot more and refresh how I am a good person. Sad...isn't it? Just seems to never end with me. I may not be perfect, I may not know everything or give off the impression like that, but I am who I am....I am me. And there is nothing wrong with that. So why do I feel like I'm the fucked up one. The one who just doesn't cut it in life or with work or as a parent? I am not perfect and I'm not afraid to say so and I don't pretend to be perfect. I have a good sense of humor and I can laugh threw the tough and ultimate shitty times in life and I don't make others feel hesitant when they are near me. So why am I the one who feels crappy. All in all it just sucks.
Anyway..........................
Enough of that. I will get off my butt with my crafts and will get out of my little lull of not knowing what the heck to make and I will once again feel like the good person that I am. And continue to treat others with respect as I always have. Also, I will have pictures next time, I promise. :)

So here I am ...finally, huh? Sorry it took me a while to get to this. Been pretty busy here and not with just crafty stuff. Sometimes life just gets in the way and I really hate that, lol.

So let's see what I've been up to (some of it anyway, lol).
I went on a search for wallpaper sample books. Tried online and didn't have any luck so I tried our local Sherwin Williams paint store and was lucky to get 3 catalogs. I was so thrilled. =) I was kinda hoping for more since I had also stopped at Joann's and was told they didn't have anything like that for material, which i thought was kind of weird, but who knows someone else could have gotten to them sooner. But I know now where to go to. =)

I hope to get a hold of an end table to collage and decorate. I think it would be a lot of fun, plus I've never done it. I have a tall dresser that I may collage, but I'm still undecided.

I have also made this altered spoon. It's not the best, lol, but I'm getting a little better, lol. I have it hung on my purse and sofar a couple people have commented on it and i thought on person was going to ask if I would make her one, but I'm a little happy I wasn't asked, you know just in case I don't please her, lol.

I've been working on a lot of ATC's lately and I am so tired of not having a printer to use. We have 2 here one ran out of both kinds of ink and the other is out of black. =( And I feel like I'm not doing as good with my ATC's. What I'm going to do and Iguess I should have done before is try and see what I can print out and anything that is black and white, try to change that color. I've have received alot of ATC's that have been printed out (I think they have been anyway) and if they can do it, why can't I. Although I like putting more work into them also when I can. But I can always color the pictures and fancy them up some right? I had received a note of one of my ATC's being a clipping out of a magazine. Is that so wrong? Am I the only one who makes them like that? And how is that any different from using scrap book papers? I have to admit that, that had me a little bothered. I mean, just because they aren't 100% hand drawn or what have you, it doesn't make it a bad ATC, maybe something you yourself may not have made, but for others it's just the way they do it at time. I'm not going to fret over it, I'm just going to be the way I've always been about anything I receive, "relaxed." And enjoy what I do. Right? Right!

Now a little something I think I'm going to try for myself, to help me out emotionally and with my anxiety being an annoyance for me...a way to hopefully make me feel a little better about life and all, I'm going to start myself a journal. Nothing fancy or anything unless I end up going in that direction in time, but I'm going to start writing down what makes me happy everyday. Whether it has to do with my family or not. What I'm hoping is that I will relieve some of the anxiety I feel and the mixed emotions. It's been very hard without my brother in my life, but I need to try to find a way that will boost my spirits some. My crafts help, but I think I need something more. Something has got to work.

Well, until next time......

So Much For Today's Motivation

Wow today is such a blah day. I don't know why, just can't stand the feeling. I woke up sore and exhausted and a little cranky. Didn't really feel like doing much, maybe I just needed some time to just relax. But that's what I do often, well when I nap.

I did however, finally get a hold of my family doctor and made my appointment to get on better medicines for this stupid anxiety/overwhelmed feeling that I can't stand and to hopefully have something done to get rid of my headaches that I notice are turning more toward migraines. (I REALLY REALLY hate that word) Enough is enough, I'm just tired of feeling like crap. My appointment is on this coming Monday and this time, I really need to keep up with it and stay in touch. This can't be good for me or anyone that feels the same.

On the plus side of today, although I didn't do diddly. I did manage to get a couple pictures of what I had been up to lately.



I worked on some Book Thongs.....funny word, lol.



I've been trying to think of ways to share my very much loved and missed brother Terry's bead stash on what I make and share with others. These I want to make plenty of.



I really feel he would love that I have made these and want to share them with others. He has always encouraged me to do different kinds of crafts and ways I could make money from them. But for right now, I just enjoy sharing. Money can be made at another time, if I feel up to it.

Also I has worked on some ATC's (Artist Trading Cards) Part of me doesn't want to give these up for a SwapBot Swap, but i guess that's a small sacrifice that's made, lol. And I just might have some more pictures to make more, lol.



I know the picture turned out a bit suckish, but at least I have a pic, lol. I'm not sure why, but there something about vampires that I just love, lol. And seeing a vampire that's a male...ummm ya, I'll just leave it at that. HAHAHA!



This one turned out pretty neat too. And yes the glue dried clear =) I'll probably send these off to their new homes (boohoo-boohoo-hoo)

Ok so it dawned on me that I did actually do something other than take pictures today......I made this after receiving 2 inchies made with foil.



I thought the inchies were so cool looking although now I need pictures of them. I tried it myself but ATC size. Not bad for a first try. I hope to find out more ways to use foil, lol.

Welp that's my status for today, hope you enjoyed the pictures and feel more motivation then me....

Blast From My Craft Past (1)

I thought it would be a really nice idea to share some of what I have made in the past. Who knows, maybe you'll want to give it a try, just as much as seeing these made by others have made me want to, lol.

This is my first and only attempt at making a "Duct Tape Purse". "First" because, I just might feel so inclined to make another (ya right, lol) and "only" because it went so smoothly for me (which is not at all part of the norm for me), that I was just waiting for a major mistake to happen, lol.

I made this purse while sitting out on my front porch during the summer. Thankfully my kids and their friend keep themselves busy. If they hadn't, I doubt that I would have made it, lol. I had the whole thing pictured in my mind and just took deep breaths and I forced myself to patiently "take my time" while putting this together. As much as I hated it and for as much as I was hoping and praying that all my work would actually work out for me,lol. I toughed it out and had this beauty of a purse whipped up in 2 hours. THANK GOD!!!


For the bottom of the purse I enclosed a sheet of plastic canvas to make it more sturdy and have the closure made with magnets. Both the plastic canvas and magnets are covered.


The flowers I have to admit were VERY trick and annoying trying to cut them out just right. You know how it is to cut tape, it loves to stick, lol. But after many times of trying, I thought why not just fold a piece together, then cut the flowers out like that, lol. I would rather not have done it that way, but it worked well enough for me, lol. I honestly couldn't wait to get it completed.

I wanted to show people what I had made. At that time I was working 2 jobs. So job #1 said it was really cool and they said they really liked it and it was pretty, job#2 (which I am still at, grrrrr) gave me a look as if I'm messed up and kinda giggled. So I thought to myself "whatever" and "I'd like to see them try something like this", lol. Damn sure I'd giggle, lol. But of course for different reasons, lol.

A New Beginning

Hi. My name is Patti, thank you for stopping by. I finally decided to get another blog going, it's been a while for me so bare with me and my posts. lol. I have to give alot of the credit though to a great, sweet and wonderfully funny caring friend I have met thru SwapBot. You can visit her at www.themustfactory.com. She made my blog look so pretty too, lol.

I hope to share with you the different things I enjoy making from crocheting to wire work. I'll be also sharing some of my past projects. Feel free to ask how it's made, I love sharing what I know with others.

Also at some time I'd like to try and have a little sale here. Don't worry I'm cheap lol, or maybe set up a game where there will be a prize for the winner, with a picture included. =)

Well Until next time, I hope you stick around even for a tiny bit and I hope you enjoy your visit and that I learn more about blogging better, lol.